every cell of skin, every fiber of hair, muscle, fat etc is already controlled by someone, remotely
they've been vandalizing me and misleading me, making me separated and isolated, feel guilty and worthless to be abused, since I was a kid
my only worth was to be able to know what 6 x 6 was
my dad did this to me when no one else was around by hitting me across the face when I said 25 the first time he forced me to learn the 9 x 9 table